Stretched!

So you know that feeling you get when your pregnant and sticking out a foot- the one that says I am so stretched I can't take it anymore, get this baby out, but at the same time you don't really want the baby to come yet because it's too early. Yeah I am there! I'm 36 weeks today and am starting to pray that as soon as I am 37 weeks my water will break.

And although I am getting excited to meet this little guy, I am starting to miss my other little guy a lot too. I just pray that having another boy after losing one won't be difficult. I keep wondering what if he looks like Isaac- will that be hard, what if he doesn't- will that be hard, and so on. I know it doesn't make since and it never does, unless you are also an angel mom- then you understand all the crazy, conflicting and outrageous thoughts and feelings that pop up with any and every subject.

Facelift

I decided my blog needed a new facelift. I still have a couple of things I'd like to add to it but for now I hope you all enjoy. For some more exciting news- we are hoping to move into our new house this week. Once we are in I will post some pictures of my very own domain that I get to decorate!!!! I am all too excited.

Halloween Costumes

I like to make Halloween costumes for the kids for three reasons:

1. I think they look cuter

2. They last longer (we use them as dress ups after Halloween)

3. I just plain enjoy making them

So this year was no different. They both wanted to be fairies from the Tinkerbell movie. We had one Tinkerbell and one Silvermist. Here are how the costumes turned out.

Tinkerbell

Silvermist

Blog Background

So I am getting the hang of this blog thing a little more. A couple of days ago I learned how to make my own blog backgrounds!!! I have been playing around with it and finally figured out how to make it work. You can check out my very own homemade background at Isaac's blog (click here). I am still tweaking it so it may change a little but at least I figured it out. I am so excited about it and once I really get the hang of it, I may try one on this blog.

Dear Isaac

My Sweet Isaac,

Last sunday marked one year since you left this life and returned to our Father in Heaven. I miss you so much. You would be 19 months old today, but you will always be a little baby to me.

A week or so ago, I was in Walmart and saw these cute little cowboy boots. They were just about the size you would be wearing now. I could just see you wearing them and Daddy's cowboy hat, following him around the ranch feeding the lambs and riding the horses. Daddy would teach everything and you would want to be just like him.

I love you sweet boy. I know that you are okay and free from the pains you endured here, but my heart still hurts for you. My arms hurt to hold you. I want to smell you. And even though it sounds gross, I want to change your colostomy bag. I miss everything about taking care of you.

A year ago today, we laid your body to rest. It was a numb day for me, but today I feel the sadness. It's been a year since I could see you in more than a picture and I long to see you again. I want to see your smile most. It could brighten any day.

I look forward to the day that I get to hold you again. Once I get the chance, I don't think I will ever put you down again. I love you. Watch over us. Help us to know you are near.

Love always,

Mommy

Pajamas

I finally got one on my many sewing projects done! I made some pajamas for my girls. They turned out pretty cute if I do say so myself. I was sad though because the polka dot and striped ones shrunk a lot! They no longer fit my kids so we passed them along to their cousins. Now on to the next project.

Walk For Healing Hearts

As many of you already know, we belong to a support group called Intermountain Healing Hearts. They have been in helping us through our journey with Isaac, during his life and in his passing. They hold an annual Walk For Healing Hearts. It is a fundraising walk and also helps to spread CHD Awareness. If any of you are able and willing participate, we would appreciate the support.

The walk will take place on Saturday, September 12 at Riverview Park in Provo. Please go to www.intermountainhealinghearts.org to register. Thanks.